last day of november

i can't believe we are stepping into the last month of 2009. it's crazy. but i am agreeing with the quote above.. i'm going to move right forward, no more looking backwards.

anyways, i did the random doodle of "the facts of tea". i actually researched it on google (not that it's that hard! but still, the effort counts :p) i think my favorite kind of tea is oolong and black. i used to like green tea but i got bored of it. so, what's your favorite kind of tea?

a mental note

always remember this.

encouraging oneself

happy thoughts. happy thoughts. happy thoughts. happy thoughts.

just a little rant

i am really trying my best to believe in the quote above.. but sometimes, the struggle is too much. and maybe i'm not able to go through with it. i don't know. i want to be positive but there are times when enough is enough. and a person can only really take on so much. i hate expectations but all human beings have it.. i guess i'll just have to deal with it.

the list (part six)

so this is going to be the last of the lists for awhile. or maybe at least for this month. we'll see if i come up with better lists to do, if yes then maybe i'll do some more.. if not, then too bad. but this whole list thing is getting pretty boring. don't you think? or maybe it's just me. i get bored super easily. so does anyone share my bad habits? i think there'll be a few who can relate to "browsing on the internet for far too long" :p

i hope everyone have a great weekend.

random things

i cooked mac and cheese the other day. it was the first time ever that i made it from scratch and not from those pre-boxed ones from the supermarket. it turned out quite good, surprisingly! i might make some more soon.. i love mac and cheese. it is such a comfort food.

anyways, i have always had a thing about benches. i don't know why. i like them.. no matter where they are located. i just like them. that's my weird fact of the day for anyone who's reading this.

and i have also found some expired polaroids recently. they are 2 years old.. so the colors are definitely off, as you can see in the photo. i kinda like it though.

ps. sorry for the random post. i was meant to post about thanksgiving, i even made a list of what i am thankful for.. but i didn't have time to scan that list in. so i guess this is it for now.

my love bucket

sorry for the awkward/weird post title. but it is true.. that ice bucket is my love bucket. random information but anyways..

process of my doodles

so here's another pairing. i may be getting a little addicted to these "pairings" but whatever.. the more, the merrier right? and i also seem to post quite often these days.. definitely not in a rut of any sort.. which is good to know!! we all know how blog ruts can be sometimes.. maybe i've had my fair share for this year.

anyways, a couple of you have been asking how the process of my doodles is like. well to make it not long and boring, i'll try to explain it as short as i can:
1. draw/doodle/write on normal paper with a pen
2. scan it in (sometimes i am too lazy to do this :p)
3. layout it out on photoshop (yes, i use photoshop)
4. save and blog it (tadaaaaaa! done!)

i guess the thing that most people don't get is the fact that i like combining the traditional way, which is writing and drawing by hand.. but then also digitalizing it using photoshop. i don't know if that makes sense. but i really hope it does. if not, drop me an email and maybe i'll be able to explain it to you better there?

that's all for now. toodles!!

the list (part five)

it's official. november is my "list" month. i have made five lists so far.. and i think some of you suggested this particular one. so here it is! i realized if i doodled these places that i listed, it probably wouldn't do any justice.. so i found them on google images instead. for your information, i have never been to any of these places but i really hope to visit them soon. one day hopefully!

now it's your turn, where would you like to travel to?

creative outlet

some people might not agree with me and some might even criticize me for agreeing to the quote "art never comes from happiness" but for me this is the case. it's probably different cases for different people. but i'm just saying, for my case.. there's always some sort of emotions coming from what i create. and most of the time, believe it or not.. it is coming from sad place, instead of a happy one.

BUT, i must say that.. creating, doodling and whatever it is that i do.. it's more of an outlet for my emotions. the positive thing though, is that after writing and doodling.. it actually makes me feel better. however, i am not saying that i am always depressed while i make my doodles cause that would probably be quite disturbing and i probably would need some sort of therapy, if that was the case..?

just know that, there are some doodles that i create out of happiness. so i guess it is somewhat an equal balance (even though it's more of 80% sad and 20% happy :p not so balanced after all!)

anyways, do you have an outlet when it comes to your emotions? whether it be happy or sad emotions.. what do you do? do you cook? draw? or work out, maybe? if i could cook, i would probably cook my emotions out!

a mini book tribute

so i was bored the other day and decided to make a mini book. and i was thinking of what to fill it in with. for some reason, i wasn't really into writing quotes.. and i wasn't feeling like doodling either. so in the end, i decided to write down some of what i read on letters to crushes. if you don't know the site already, you should probably check it out. it's basically what people write in and i find it so interesting and terribly sweet.

these are only the first four pages, there are more coming. i'm really sorry that the quality of the photos are pretty bad. and this is why i really need a new camera. or maybe just better lighting.

ps. you might want to click to see it larger. and on second thoughts, i don't think i'll be posting the rest of the pages up on my blog. they are ridiculously dark and fugly. if you want, you can see it on my flickr page. i seriously NEED A NEW CAMERA!!

yay weekend!

two doodles made at different times but they seem to flow together just nicely.
i hope you all have a great weekend!

the list (part four)

so, i don't think it's too early for a christmas wishlist in mid november right? i want these things so badly!! and i know it may be a little greedy but my guess is that, i won't even get half of the things on this list. but i can always wish and dream!! anyways, click to see it larger.

have you guys made your christmas wishlist for this year, yet? i'd love to know what others are wishing for!! (i know my list is quite materialistic.. since i didn't wish for happiness or healthiness or any of that stuff, but i just thought i'd have fun with this one and create the ultimate wishlist. is that so wrong?) a girl can always dream.

this is it

i am done.

ps. i think i'll stick to my usual way of writing. it seems more appropriate for me and this blog. i would probably change my mind again in the future.. but for now, having caps starting in the middle of nowhere is kind of weird. maybe in 2010, i'll change it. who knows. i'm sorry to those who commented saying that i should use proper caps, i hope you'll understand! (i've also edited my previous post to be normal again..)

the proper way of writing

here's a little mind map that i did. and the lyrics are from glee. if you're still not on the glee craze, jump aboard!! or else, you'll be missing out. i have pretty much every song from the show on my ipod right now. it's THAT good.

Anyways, if you haven't already noticed, I am typing with proper caps and stuff (I don't know how to say it? Correct punctuations and capitalization?) I just thought that I might give it a try and see how it goes. Plus, I've always wanted/wondered if I should write like this. Just because it looks better and proper in a way..? What do you think? Yay or nay? Should I just stick to my usual ignorant way of typing? Or should I do what's right? (Okay, that sounds rather ridiculous.. But you know what I mean. Right..?)

ps. thanks for all the tips and suggestions from the last post! it actually worked, i thought of what i was going to eat for breakfast and that made me really hungry, which made me woke up at 5.30am!! i just hope i can keep it up.

a little unwell

it was so hard getting up this morning. i literally had to drag myself out from bed.. it's just one of those really bad mornings that i get at least once a week. sigh. anyways, i'm drinking cups and cups of coffee so that should wake me up!!

any ideas on how to get out of bed easily? i usually would play really loud and jumpy music to wake me up but even that, is not really working out anymore. i need a new technique. any suggestions?

ps. always make sure you are the priority, not the option.

a declaration

don't you think?

beige black

words i keep telling myself these days.

a random update

i went grocery shopping today! bought lots and lots of chocolate. i was seriously deprived of chocolate that i think it made me a little depressed. sounds silly but sometimes, you just need some sugar to feel happy. i wish i could be eating those cupcakes from the photo above, though.

i hope everyone have a great weekend!! any exciting plans? i think i'll be just at home, relaxing..

the list (part three)

so this is part three of my lists (if you missed out, you can see part one and part two). i've always wanted to be able to play the piano. i learnt canon in d by pachabel ages ago but that was the one piece, that i could play and if you ask me to play it now, i wouldn't remember how to. plus, i have no idea how to read music either, i only learnt the keys by heart (haha :p)

have you guys done any lists lately? leave a comment and a link, so i can see!! also, any more ideas about future lists, i would love to hear them.

scrapollage: amelie

i love amelie. i mean, who doesn't..? so there was a time when i saved all the screen caps and printed them out. just because they are so beautiful and unique. and then i decided to use it for my scrapollage. i liked mixing my own words with the images.. especially when they intertwine. i don't know if that makes sense.

i keep telling myself that i'll be okay. everything will be okay. and it is okay.

after all..

just appreciate and be thankful with what you have right in front of you.
we tend to forget that sometimes.

happy all around

surprisingly, it's mid-week and i am feeling good!! maybe it's because i woke up to glee's soundtrack.. or maybe it's because my sister braided my hair today. either way, today is a good day!! also, i came back from the printing place yesterday and i have something to show you. i will take photos of it soon!!

ps. friends are the best, aren't they? this may come a little random but then again, my whole blog is pretty random in its own way. oh well. i'm thankful for my friends. that's all :)

(edit: just found this on flickr, how coincidental!!)

decisions leads to consequences

i finally bought my very first pair of brogues/ wingtips a few months ago. haven't really had the chance of wearing them just yet! when i do, i will definitely snap a photo and upload it here. i really liked the color and it looked really worn out too, not in a nasty kind of way.. but in a perfect kind of way. anyways, i've always wanted one but didn't settle for any except for this one. i also saw some from steve madden but resisted because i thought i would find something better, which i did! but if i really had the budget, i would definitely get these.

on a completely different note, i made a decision today. it was one where i had to think over and over again and then, try putting myself in someone else's shoes. it actually made a difference to the outcome and in the end, i knew that what i was doing is the right thing because i was not being selfish and i considered about how the other person would feel. that is all.

life changes

another page of my scrapollage. i need to do more of these! that's an old photo of my shoes that i printed out and sticked in. nothing too fancy. but the question is, do you need a change in your life?

ps. EMOLY, you are my 500th follower on google friend connect, please email me your address and i will send something nice to you in the mail :) i can't get a hold of your blog or your email!!

(edit:) also, if you noticed.. i changed the font on my blogger posts and dates to a typewriter kind of font. i have been wanting to do this since forever!! but i didn't know how to do it, until today.. that is. so of course, i have to share it with you all. go here and you will get the full instructions. it might look like it's hard to do.. but believe me, it is worth the time!! and if i can do it, you can definitely do it too! just a note though, you might want to use a simple font that isn't too fancy because it can get a little too crowded on your blog! and don't worry if you can't get it right the first time, i had to fix mine a couple of times until i was fully satisfied with the results. have fun!

note to self

pretty self-explanatory. it's kinda hard when your past just keep popping up in your present. and just when you let them in, get used to the idea.. they leave. either way, i shouldn't be affected. i should make peace with it all.

ps. this is not a negative post. i'm sorry if it seems like it. i guess i just feel that if i write it down here, i got it out and it makes me feel better and stronger in a way? i don't know. but it is liberating. for sure.

the list (part two)

this is a pretty vague list but honestly.. these really are my most sentimental valuables. i couldn't think of anything else except these things while i was making the list, which makes it less interesting. sorry!

so, what are your most sentimental valuables? are they the same as some of mine? i would really love to know.

ps. if you missed out on the list (part one): click click! there's going to be more lists coming. shoot me some ideas of lists, if you'd like! i would really appreciate it.

so far, i've come up with "bad habits i need to get rid off" and "talents i wish i had". i guess this can somehow be a question and answer interaction between me and you guys, except in the form of lists! it could get interesting :p